Friday, April 15, 2022


 Catharsis: "The purification and purgation of emotions through art or any extreme change in emotion that results in renewal and restoration." As in: "that was cathartic.

{Somehow, this is cathartic.  Purging out some of the excess words in my head/heart.  I think it's reassuring that it's going out to no one in particular, but there's also the tantalising idea that it could reach someone.}

This morning I've been chewing on how life is made and shaped by so many tiny decisions.  Of course there are big ones... but the devil is in the detail of the minute decisions.  I don't know about you, but I personally can get very stuck in running through the little decisions I've made one by one and examining them from all angles.  Even though what's done is done, I struggle to leave it there.  It's done.  There is absolutely nothing I can do to change it.  The ONLY thing I can change is this little decision that is here right now.  I do not know why this is so very challenging for me.  Why do I go back and touch all those little past decisions?  I'm pretty sure that if changing the past were possible I would have gone back and messed with everything!  Walking the paths of life is an extreme exercise in trust.  I either trust God is writing the story and all those little decisions are things he sees, knows and uses to the outcome of good for me ultimately, or I don't.  On any given day you will find me a solid mix of belief and unbelief.  Hence the cry, "Lord, I believe!  Help my unbelief."

Wednesday, March 30, 2022

Who knew?

4 years.  Yep.  That's the # between my last blog post here and this one.  2018 might as well have been a lifetime ago and that's the truth.  That's true in my own life and exponentially true for the world at large.  Who knew?  But then again when do we ever know we're on a collision course with trauma?  

Very randomly (no irony to see here), I have felt inspired to blog again.  I know, I're skeptical and well you should be.  But really.  I think I might try.  Cause what's at the end of trying?  Only stupidity, success or failure.  What is there really to lose?  So yeah.  I guess I'm gonna start throwing words out into the ether, cause maybe it's worth something and maybe it's not, but either way I want to try to say a few things.  And if no one is listening and this is just another one of 16 billion blogs and a mind staggering number of words that float around out there, so be it.