"What he really wanted to say was: have you felt this? This phantom life streaking like a phosphorescent hound at the edges of your ruin?" {"The Solace of Leaving Early"}
Maybe it sounds strange, but that's a bit of how I feel... there is this illusive life streaking by on the edges of existence. I catch it out of the corner of my eye and for a second I feel this surge of hope... maybe...
co·nun·drum
kəˈnəndrəm/
noun
- a confusing and difficult problem or question."one of the most difficult conundrums for the experts"
synonyms: problem, difficult question, difficulty, quandary, dilemma;